So I still havent read that blog from yesterday, I was at a bit of a low point there I think...I know after I wrote it I continued getting lower and went to a bar with my roommate for her 21st, but then I found myself crying at the bar. I dont know, something is definitely off right now. I'm having a really hard time because I usually always ask my parents for advice but I'm a little scared to right now. I dont think my mom know how to give good advice and she doesnt every really listen to I feel like. Well I know she does, but she doesnt seem to know how to respond to it. It's so hard because I want to talk to her, I know she can help me but I dont know how to do it. I don't think she will really listen to me. I think this weekend will be a good time to talk with my dad. Its dads weekend so I will get some quality time with him and hopefully he can help me. He is a very smart man and has a lot of wisdom, I just need to figure it out and I need his help...I know it.

I dont exactly know what is wrong right now, I just am in a rut that I cant seem to figure out. I'm mainly stuck because I dont have the passions I used to in my life and its really bad for me. However, i just applied to be a gamma chi which kinda made me happy. And I dunno, I just have to keep busy I think and this kinda stuff helps.

I can do it. Just one day at a time.